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Location: Eastren US | DonnaLushs - 12/19/2009 2:04 PM
does anyone else just feel that despite the horrible complications and the bad things it can do to you that you still just don't care enough to stop or that it doesn't scare you enough to stop starving or purging? .
Yep. I've stand over the toilet quite often and think "I could die here" but purge anyway.
I'm EDNOS but it's been so long since I've successfully restricted, I've started thinking of myself as bulimic. I want to be able to go back to restricting w/o binging so bad, but I'm a f*cking cow. I've gained so much weight. I hate myself, I can't control myself any more. Purging doesn't do any good, but I always do it anyway. F*ck life. |
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do you want to become bulimic?
